Life's Little Pleasures

Gd ole times

2010-08-30T19:36:00.001+08:00

2010-07-14T23:46:00.004+08:00

I've not migrated out of blogger rather, to build up my creative portfolio and link to 8flo, http://philosoapyyyy.tumblr.com/ was set up. This blog will still continue to exist as a space i share with friends.

sweet dreams are made of this

2010-07-12T10:12:00.002+08:00

I had a dream

2010-07-01T03:31:00.001+08:00

Priscilla Ahn - "Dream" from Paste Magazine on Vimeo.

Stolen out of Jo.

2010-06-24T09:26:00.002+08:00

This kinda sums up how I've been feeling since ~~Cancer~~ the Yardstick. Sometimes, someone interesting comes along but it always almost ends up with nothing really worth remembering and time just whizzes by like a blur.

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.

You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life... You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore.

Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

- Neil Gaiman

Close encounters

2010-06-17T10:34:00.001+08:00

Me: i had the weirdest dream yesterday
i was making out with a man with a stubble and things were getting hot
then i told him that i had to go to the loo
and i woke up went to the toilet

A: HAHAHAHA
that was quite funny

Me: but the dream didn't continue! After I went back to bed.

A: damn he left

2010-06-15T08:24:00.002+08:00

I wish I could have met you 6 years ago. I wouldn't have been this fucked up.

Daily affirmation

2010-06-11T22:33:00.000+08:00

Dear self, you will be able to do citations faster than anyone in the office as a former IS student, even though you might have 1001 other more things to do, you will prioritize your work and do well without crying like a child or falling into depression.

Don't change.

2010-06-08T13:46:00.005+08:00

Toiletbrush is one of my favouritest friends. It was heartbreaking for me to see him saying the words,

"Soph, if I become a fucker, will you still be my friend?"

over a chick who played him out. I miss our innocence. We've been friends since secondary school and grew up together. Our friendship has stood the test of lovers, heartache (repeat), propping each other up, not limited to him coming as my movie date at work, giving me encouragement and affirmation. Thing is, Toiletbrush, we've been friends for so long, I can throw you all the disapproving glares and we could get pissed at each other but we'll still be friends. Still. Don't change.

Blonde ambition

2010-06-06T23:42:00.003+08:00

Been wanting to go blonde for the longest time. The tough part is choosing the right shade to match fair azn skin.

JJ is damn funneh.

2010-05-19T23:41:00.003+08:00

Me
i watched the latest bleach anime (271)
orihime is damn irritating
11:39pm
JJ
can kill her pls?
11:39pm
Me
someone keel her already
lol
11:39pm
JJ
leave her boobs to someone more useful
like
erm
like
ah heck.. put them on ichigo
11:40pm
Me
HAHAHA

Time as I know it.

2010-05-19T17:58:00.007+08:00

It's a personal choice of mine to take my personal life offline at least uploading of information like blogging, fb status updates and twitter.

It took a really creepy guy who has managed to successfully google me through one email address and started off what seemed like a harmless conversation of common interests to stalking.

Oh and facebook is a huge breach of privacy. It's child's play for the common hacker and because of how much information it contains, it makes perfect bait for identity theft.

The web provides endless hours of time wasting activities. I still feed off my weekly Kdrama, I really like Cinderella's Sister which I'm following on a weekly basis the same time it airs in Korea, Japanese Manga and Anime.

I'm definitely plugging CS because it seems like it took all the streotypes of the ideal Korean woman and put it into the 2nd lead that makes her vulnerable, ideal yet dislikeable and irritating. The step-sister lead on the other hand is stubborn, manipulative, mean and yet pitiful.

Moon Guen Young is also a great actress by the way, her crying scenes are gut wrenchingly poignant.

Still on the Asian media feed, the media student in me has to commend the Hyundai Shouts of Reds (Shouting Campaign).

Le sigh. If only the rest of us has the balls to dump money on a campaign like this one for the upcoming big event that Singapore will be hosting later this year.

Let's see what they did right ...

1. Get the right sponsor on board.
No tight assed conservative, preferably has the mentality of a bloody rich sugar daddy.

2. Get the right people to endorse in this case Kim Yuna and Big Bang.
Kim Yuna became some kind of a national heroine after bagging a Gold medal at the Winter Olympics. Honestly I don't see Big Bang Fans running out to buy Hyundai cars after seeing the advert or any idol group at least to have the spending power having appeal to rather young demographic but this is mitigated by their popularity or what we call star power.

3. Synchronised dancing.
Mambo has never gone out of style. Think Michael Jackson's Thriller, one hit wonder Soldier Boy caused an internet sensation with crank Dat and most recently Wonder Girls with Nobody.

4. Appropriate use of social media tools.
With the combined powers of 1,2,3 launch a campaign to push out the content. Youtube is free and most importantly GLOBAL. Last I saw the vid had about 40k in views which is pretty decent.

I like how the World Cup influences practically the whole country, in this case, the Hyundai campaign is but one of the many campaigns floating around virally. The build-up and hype kinda makes you want to chant Dae Han Min Guk.

(How come we not like that one?)

Fudgy frustrated cookies.

2010-04-20T12:50:00.005+08:00

Y: Why do you have to live so far now?

Me: You moved too! From Upper East Coast!

Y: That's besides the point. I live 5 minutes away from where you work.

Me: .... ok you win.

i think i'm inherently evil.

2010-04-06T22:24:00.004+08:00

Part of me has a masochistic streak that can sniff out weakness, incompetence and fear.

Was having a conversation with a stranger over social wholivesnearyou.

"Happiness is relative.
The higher the high, the deeper the drop.
But then again there's nothing modern medicine cannot fix."

"I think we live in a medicated society. I was referring to mood altering drugs like anti-depressants. You pop a pill and then suddenly don't feel like killing yourself. What rubbish. I believe in the power of the human mind. If you seriously need a pill to tell stop harming yourself I say you're better off dead cos you're just competing with me for oxygen."

What's your digital footprint like?

2010-03-30T07:36:00.003+08:00

I deliberated taking away facebook - too many drunk pictures

blogger - too emo, twitter for a while. The truth is I feel like I should have an awesome life offline and there are so many things I'd want to do, yet to do and plan for.

Lazy bones

2010-03-23T13:27:00.003+08:00

Packed a bolognese pasta with half a potatocake. Nao too lazy to walk downstairs . Heh. *satisfied smile*

2010-03-22T18:12:00.002+08:00

I'm craving meat. Nothing beats a dead cow.

**Edit: Dead cow is good cow. ~ Andrew Ng

2010-03-20T12:51:00.003+08:00

I don't have ideals of finding a perfect man but I've always had the ideals of finding someone one who'd love me despite my imperfections, someone who'd be happy, not just contented with me, living together and having a family and a home together. That's virtually everything I didn't have growing up. As the months flew by me these two years, it became more and more like an impossible dream. I knew that I had hit a bottom when having a successful career seemed so much more attainable.

I lol-ed at marijuana Santa

2010-03-14T20:06:00.003+08:00

2010-03-13T22:08:00.005+08:00

Product of coming from ah beng school: Hello Aunty. Not happy just say lah. No need to cower behind ambiguity. YOU invaded MY space. Live with it. It's not like I'm friends with you or your boyfriend which you keep by the way.

It dawned on me today that I don't have a home so I've decided to work for one.

2010-03-13T14:11:00.006+08:00

Hate is a strong word. Some dimbos really don't know what they're talking about. Personally, I think the only way someone can really hate another person is when they started out loving him/her first. For everything else there is disdain, distaste, irk, irritation, dislike, aversion, contempt (and the list goes on)

I hate to say it but, there's really no use in growing intelligence in your tits.

Song of the mo': Everything

2010-03-13T08:45:00.002+08:00

The beatles lied.

2010-03-13T00:56:00.003+08:00

I think I felt compelled to leave tonight more than I ever have. I asked myself what happened to that person who worked so hard and achieved so much more. It hit me that I needed to dream bigger. Much bigger.

I want to see the leaves turn red in fall.

Friends like these

2010-03-12T15:54:00.005+08:00

Yesterday,

A: Cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer up lah
Me: How to? Tomorrow's movie night. I could potentially bump in to him.
A: Well, I hope he trips down the cinema steps and breaks his nose, imagine him now all disfigured.
Me: *Hahaha* You sure know how to cheer me up.

A adds to the collection of platonic male friends to make up for the emotional peripheral replacement of a relationship. I needed an emotional pillar so I called on Toiletbrush to fill in the "date" space.

Problemo:

I'm trying to figure out how to work things out with the travelling, left-winged pot smoking (almost vegan) tree hugging hippie. I'd rather him spend 2 months here and I do the same as opposed to me just spending 2 months travelling South America with an almost complete stranger. One more option to go after the Games.

2010-03-11T17:29:00.001+08:00

I have immense respect for Tablo as a musician, artist, and writer. Word alchemy at it's best.

"I think of you as my echo. When I first met you, I thought my mind and feelings which was spread out through the world had returned back to me as a person like you… Your wishes, hopes, dreams and happiness that you had throughout your life, I will give mine to you. I love you.”

Tablo 2009

2010-03-10T21:53:00.003+08:00

Meredith represents all things dysfunctional. She's human. And I can relate to that much.

Family from Aug 14 - 26

2010-03-04T15:53:00.004+08:00

KH is quite right, I can hardly recognise myself. I quite like the tan.

The little sister's virgin tattoo experience

2010-03-03T10:40:00.005+08:00

I was quite proud she did not cry considering she SCREAMED when she got her ears pierced.

Toiletbrush says: Ohhh walau u damn hip la. Accompany your sis to ink. But it's nice. Good selection.

2010-02-26T17:39:00.002+08:00

I'd like to lean my head on your shoulder and just pretend your were mine just for a few moments.

koff and sniffles

2010-02-26T10:37:00.003+08:00

I think the double boiled ginseng chicken that I made last week was too heaty.

Had the most interesting conversation with a younger guy yesterday and we graduated to sms-ing. I feel like I'm going through a mid-20s crisis. Worse still, the younger sister pointed this out quite sometime ago. To which I answered that I can't help it if I like street fashion.

Early 20s - 20, 21, 22, 23
Mid 20s - 24, 25, 26 (I'm still here thankfully)
Late 20s or OMFG we're fast approaching the big tree-oh - 27, 28, 29

I was bitching to the equally young neighbour, he lives a stone throw away about the strange phenomenon older woman/younger man dynamic, something I affectionally I call the noona syndrome also known as Mrs Robinson effect or the cougar syndrome. What happened to the older guys?

To which he replied that "Age is only a number."

:o

Could the neighbour also have designs on an older woman? The neighbour's quite cute, he could pass off as a younger Rain with the whole tank top and small but apparent biceps thing going on.

I have to admit that this whole thing with the younger guy not the neighbour is awfully flattering and completely fueling my ego. :$

Motivational Lou Hei

2010-02-25T16:13:00.002+08:00

"Being the first has a huge advantage, if you aim to be the best, someone is bound to break your record some day, but if you are the first, nobody can take that away from you."

Past talking

2010-02-22T23:20:00.003+08:00

Honestly, sometimes I feel this little island is too small for the both of us.

I've always wanted to run away.

2010-02-20T17:27:00.003+08:00

The idea of travelling to a foreign country, going on a few makan trips, wine and falling madly in love sounds so completely romantic. Why is it that I'm not quite feeling it?

Reflections of sneaky sneakers

2010-02-19T19:00:00.007+08:00

Bring back 2002.

You used to ride your little bicycle to my place.

18 Febby

2010-02-19T18:35:00.007+08:00

We had Itacho, walked and chilled out at Starbucks Fullerton over

iced-coffee and a Green Tea frap.

2010-02-12T00:30:00.002+08:00

Han

enjoy church!!

12:16amSophie

i always do

it gives me a calmness i cannot explain

maybe not now, i feel tested

vexed and challenged like a fish out of water

too many issues

12:20amHan

i feel that i am the person on the far end of the road with a bowl of water but is not aware of the fish

12:23amSophie

i'm not too sure wad to say to that

Greeting card moment

2010-02-11T06:19:00.002+08:00

My cell group mates send greeting cards for every thinkable occasion; welcome to the cell, birthdays, farewells, get-well-soons etc. My hallmark moment right now calls for a "Get the fuck out of my life :)"

I'm relying on my best friends to fix me.

2010 birthday

2010-02-04T08:58:00.002+08:00

Good times.

Where in Singapore?

2010-01-27T15:46:00.002+08:00

Condusive creative environment - smokes, power outlet, laptop, outdoor ventilation

8.30pm on a Sat night

2010-01-23T20:27:00.001+08:00

I'm preparing for bed. Just too tired.

2010-01-19T21:00:00.000+08:00

Darran captioned this as "introducing Sophie (surname) the raging alcoholic.

When decent conversation fails ...

2010-01-19T16:23:00.004+08:00

Choose your adventure. Start a conversation with either of the following;

a) How are you?

b) Do you want to shag?

c) Liverpool played a shit game the other day ...

To which I responded

Tired ...

"Would you rather I go home now?"

Don't be silly.

b) ... I'm not sure how to react to that

"Then just say YES!!!"

*throws a dagger piercing look*

c) I care very little for these male homo erotic sports.

"Hey at least I tried"

Conversations

2010-01-08T00:48:00.002+08:00

"I dislike how hearts are replacing the word 'love.' <3 does not equal to love. I fear one day the word will disappear from our vocabularies."

I quite like a man with an opinion even though I might not necessarily agree with all of them.

Holiday hangover

2010-01-06T07:29:00.004+08:00

Val captioned this as "Sophie is awesome" on fb.

Hellooooooooo! Jogja was great!

What's not so great is organising and consolidating the photos after. Between the 3 of us there's about 450 photos, I forgot to bring mine at the Borobudur tour. Eta did me one up by bringing her camera without the SD card. Hahaha.

The pornographer by John McGahern

2010-01-06T00:48:00.003+08:00

"I too had stood mutilated by another gate, believing that I could not live without my love; but we endure, as the first creature leaving water endured, having first tried to turn back from the empty land. Having drunk from the infernal glass we call love and knowing we have lived our death, we turn to love another way, in the ordered calm of each thing counted and loved for its impending loss. We learn to smile."

Fortune teller taxi driver says ...

2009-12-17T00:54:00.003+08:00

That as long as I'm not seeing someone, I will have luck and money. It's been 2 years and counting now and I've opportunities knocking faster than I can turn them away, some more profitable than others of course. Also, I'm optimistic, I mean experience be it good or bad is still a learning journey.

Roadtrip planning in process.

2009-12-10T07:24:00.003+08:00

It's been a while since I've been excited about a trip. In recent times it's been about business or just visiting friends.

Jkt ~ Yogyakarta ~ Bandung ~ Jkt

Soapy + 3 + Tornadoistas (X) denotes the unknown number, Indonesians don't plan. They just do. This trip is gonna trump all my previous NYE events and many more. Awesome updates to come.

Hallyu: Pop culture musings

2009-11-23T14:43:00.006+08:00

I only adore G-Dragon who is known for his fashion forwardness and innovation. His features are typically oriental and not particularly pronounced, he's not particularly tall. Not runway material but has managed to sparkle at red carpet events and become the talk of several centerfolds. I must say that in his case, the clothes truly maketh the man.

For his solo albumn, the concept was very well planned out. The apple theme was consistently applied. In GD-TV he explains that the apple looks like a heart. Semiotics; the representation of temptation, in the garden of eden.

The styling and colours makes it look kinda avant-garde. He tops my list of #fashionable along with Kelly Osborne +1 (her hot fiance) and Agyness Deyn. I had almost died laughing when I saw this ....

WTF ... ROFLMAO

"it's like finding out your favorite love song was written about a sandwich."

27 Dresses

Boy <3 camera

2009-11-04T01:02:00.005+08:00

He's so pampered that he needs a pillow and something to hug to sleep. It's been debated that he's quite forgotten how cat-like he is instead of a very short person who walks on fours.

너라고

2009-10-24T15:08:00.002+08:00

[강인] 아무 말도 필요없어 난 그냥 너라고
너무 늦었다고 해도 난 그냥 너라고
[성민] 잘못된 사랑인 걸 알고 있지만
포기 할 수 없어 절대 놓칠 수는 없어

I want to be where you are.

Deal makers and breakers

2009-10-17T19:27:00.003+08:00

Was talking to EW about it over lunch yesterday, apparently somewhere out there exists this catch of a guy who is looking for a female left handed surgeon. He's 30, tall - towers 6 feet and a Harvard graduate.

Mine sounded so much simpler in comparison,

1. He must be able to groove. I.e. not be embarrassed or look embarrassing when he dances. It's a visual and confidence thing.
2. Must have an opinion (VVVIP), we might not be able see eye to eye but he must have a mind of his own.
3. Must like my cooking, which EW said is probably easy

EW (28f) said that hers ideally must be able to speak Chinese, mustn't smoke and must be smart.

SYTYCD - Mad

2009-10-17T08:31:00.004+08:00

No distracting pretty boys, just music and dance and see the story unfold before your eyes.

I loved how they made hip hop into a partner dance with incorporated jazz elements AND lifts. Just wow.

En route to being ein Weltburger

2009-10-16T17:18:00.005+08:00

Inspired by the lovely AZ. The official languages for the organisation that I work for is English and French. A bunch of pretty, young interns have scheduled language classes over lunch for free which is pretty neat if you ask me. Lessons run for only 45 minutes, out of which 10 minutes is given for a little free play, kinda like pre school where you can ask the "teachers" questions.

For the very first lesson, AZ enthusiastically asked them how to say, "take me to your leader!"
I was completely tickled by this. I'm sure it would prove somewhat useful should she need to conquer little islands in France. I guess anyone else who knows AZ as much as I do, will also know that her quirky and random-ness is nothing out of the ordinary.

Naturally, this got me thinking of the essential things that I should want to pick up when learning a foreign language. This list of course will be a work in progress. Here goes;

1. How much?
2. Is this the best price?

1 & 2 to cater to shopping. Especially when the family expects me to buy a ton of presents/souveniers back all the time.

3. Male prostitute/Male whore.

Combining 1 - 3 gives me a power combo to call on a male whore. I just thought it was cool.

4. Toilet

For relief of a different kind from the combination of 1-3. I'm quite surprised this came after 3 but what the hell.

5. MacDonalds.

So I won't starve, it is after all supposed to be in almost every other country.

Doodling in pixels

2009-10-16T17:03:00.009+08:00

Following a tweeter who tweets in 6 words, no more, no less. Got me inspired to write some stuff out myself.

And he left me out cold.

Fortunately, heartache does not last forever.

We feel. We hurt. We bleed.

I loved a long time ago.

I lose patience, even with myself.

(20.10.09 edit inspired by P) I can't help but love you

While I was scribbling on my notebook (I like to kick it ole skool sometimes) I realised that "Money makes the world go round" also qualifies as 6 words. I feel incredibly cynical today. This week and for ever more. Please let the emo shite pass. I'm too old for this.

Let me take you on a journey.

2009-10-14T18:29:00.004+08:00

I trace with my fingers the routes of maps in my head. The many things things that I would do without you.

I'd cross a few borders - Feel the breeze on my face with the wind in my hair, make long exploratory walks, see the piazzas of Italy, run through trails of fallen leaves in 4 colours, cross-country train ride - Malaysia to China, India, Europe, South Americas, have conversations with strangers, salsa in the town square and see the stars amongst a vast field that spans as far as my eyes can see and free from highrise buildings, believe in God and His will.

"If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up
and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong

I know better
Cause
you said forever
And ever, who knew?"

Who Knew ~ Pink

Most importantly have someone physically there and not just saying things. And then I remember why we were built differently.

If I had it my way, I would have left so long ago. Singapore is far too small. Every corner I turn in Raffles place is a painful memory and everyday here just reminds me that I don't belong. I found myself in a bizzare soliloquy,

"If I leave in 2011, Boy would be 18. Plus Grandma's not in very good health. By the time I finish studying in 2013, Boy would be 20. I wonder if he'll live that long."

Indeed, the worst of my fears is that I'm afraid that my cat's going to die on me while I'm gone.

Kermit, I'm only slightly aggrieved.

2009-10-13T13:38:00.001+08:00

Seung Gi is like the Korean Jay Chou. Younger and better looking.

Medium showdown:

2009-10-12T14:14:00.002+08:00

Some famous mediums that would not have made the cut made popular by the silverscreens:

1. Whoopi Goldberg's character Oda Mae Brown in Ghost
2. Jennifer Love Hewitt's character Melinda Gordon in Ghost Whisperer
3. Haley "I-see-dead-people" Joel Osment as Cole Sear in Sixth Sense.
4. Worst exorcist rip off; Drake Hogestyn as John Black in Days of our Lives
5. The hot Winchester brothers from Supernatural played by Jared Padalecki and Jensen Ackles

and my absolute favourite ... Buffy the vampire slayer. Imagine what would have happened to them if they had to register their interest as mediums first.

As seen (Advertisement)

2009-09-23T14:44:00.003+08:00

Semiotics: Anyone else bothered that a blonde is teaching our kids local history?

Saying it the way it is.

2009-09-22T17:08:00.004+08:00

It is much to my annoyance that some people treat me like a half-wit. It makes me reflect upon my actions, if ever have I unknowingly pulled a Ris Low.

I'm sure she thought she was pretty Boomz herself.

Okay, so back to a little on what I've been busy with lately. I have a fast approaching exam sometime soonish. I'd like to take some time to study hard for it. I'm down to 3 modules to graduation yo! Calls for a celebration, looking back, the past 2 years have been crazy. I've had so many ups and downs.

You could say that the last month has been a real test of my tenacity and character. It was after much deliberation that I decided that I am only slightly masochistic to do this over again for almost the same amount of time.

What does that really mean?

I am in preparations of embarking on another perilous journey filled with toil and possibly heartache. Looks like I'm quite destined to be a poor student for a little longer than I expected. As to why now and not later? I really don't want to let this pass and habour on another year or another of what ifs or regret. So with a little luck, prayer and elbow grease. I see hope.

I guess as plans firm up closer to confirmation, I'll be posting more about it. This will serve as a teaser for now. *fingers tightly crossed*

My Kmusic consumption is not limited to pretty dancing boys lah. For one thing, I cannot stand talentless dancing pretty boys. To be fair, their idea of mainstream has progressed towards Americanisation hence making it more easily digestable to other cultures across Asia. It is only until lately that they've been making waves with the Asian Americanisation and garnering more support. Circa 2005-2006, if you youtube the stuff, the dance battles, music and fashion is quite a vast improvement from where it is now. It's a pity that Taiwan hasn't caught on and HK is quite adamant about preserving their Canto roots.

I like Loveholic, Clazziquai and Epik High on the more eclectic range. I reckon their brand of pop is more skewed to MandoPop which is alot more easy on the ears. Most importantly no high pitched screaming girls. I'm quite sure that this model was probably pioneered by the Japanese (I might be wrong) but recent trends show that it has been perfected by the Koreans. Artist management also maintain to capitalise on the popularity of their moneymakers as well as take an interest to training them across different disciplines. Acting/singing/DJ-ing/MC-ing/Entertainment Monkey.

From a media's perspective, I would think that it is a very exciting time for them considering that Billboard is expanding into Korea taking cue from their exploding popularity in the US and cultural exchange in the case of Wonder Girls or culture copy.

Example of culture copy: Nick Bass who has worked with American big wigs - JT, Britney Speares and Janet Jackson with SuJu.

One cannot help but wonder how long this fad will last, will Japan fight back or most importantly ... What next? After all it all translates to dollars and cents $.$

2009-09-13T23:11:00.005+08:00

Boybands fascinate me to no end. The concept of the manufacturing of idols especially. I caught the Attack of the Pin-Up Boys over yesterday and I must admit it annoyed me lesser than Detroit Metal City. Which led to checking out Super Junior over youtube. I've always remembered them as the group with too many people.

13 is a production logistical nightmare. It's simply too many to fit into one frame over a 3-5 minute MV unless you're a bollywood movie. In any case if it was, the focus would be concentrated onto the hero and his best mate. Everyone else just fills space and extra heros always die.

One thing their management did right was to split them into sub-groups to capitalize on their talent pool.

SuJu does make SS501 look like amateurs in this dance battle, based on just dancing alone I think it was a great injustice that they lost.

2009-09-02T11:48:00.002+08:00

Love from the interns

"It's the truth, I love you."
"The truth's generally disasterous."
"I have so much love for you that I believe you will come to share some of it, no matter how hard you try to fight it."
"It doesn't work that way."
"If I believed that, I don't know how I could go on."
"You'd go on. Everybody does. Or mostly everybody."

I like the 2nd line.

2009-08-31T22:58:00.003+08:00

I only completely adore Sven Bianchi. Disarming, tall, good looking, resourceful, smooth without trying too hard. In real life, he'd be the epitome of every guy that was ever so wrong for me.

2009-08-28T02:57:00.001+08:00

Sometimes

there are words only tears can express.

via youwrite

Birthday shenanigans

2009-08-23T17:42:00.010+08:00

18th - Food was ok, i really liked the roast beef and sausages. I got some mustard to go with the sausages. It was one of those really spicy mustards, spicy like wasabi, upon contact with you tongue it sends a zing to your brain and the sensation hits you right through your nose. Awesome stuff.

Somewhere towards the end, Thurston took up a dare to lap up a huge teaspoon for $2 and the remainder for $5. I went home $7 poorer. That guy is crazy.

Gave her a rainbow disco ball which she loved. I'm glad that went well.

Obligatory bff shot with Sha at a Brazillian churrasco at United Square.

Celebrated the cousin's birthday on the 16th at Wine Connection with a bunch of happy men. It was quite intimidating to see that he had more make up going on than me with higher heels (6- inch pink DKNYs) to boot. The happy people were quite alright to hang out with. Zirca on a Sunday night I must add is really something else.

Shopping for the present was so incredibly stressful. I must have went through every man bag in Takashimaya and Paragon. Shopping for happy people is so difficult cos they're alot more fashion conscious. Whilst I found many nice masculine bags I could get within my price range from Ben Sherman/Zara/AX equivalent, I realised it suited more to what I wanted. I ended up gifting a ladies light grey shoulder bag from Pull and Bear. I had to ask him a few times if he liked it. He said he did and I hope he wasn't bluffing.

Anti-social

2009-08-16T20:14:00.003+08:00

I missed a few parties yesterday by cooping myself up. Isolation is comforting some days.

On missing Salsa;

Me: Hey D How was union yesterday?

D: It was fun, it wasn't too crowded so it was rather enjoyable.

Me: That's because the toes of the guys I didn't step on live to laugh another day.

D: LOL! Plenty of opportunities for you to step.

Me: I shall endeavour to practice so that I don't suck.

This cracked me up

2009-08-14T10:51:00.000+08:00

Cutest thing ever. Read more about it here

2009-08-10T03:07:00.006+08:00

Boy's my favourite.

Good news on the fone front. I'm now mobile again. Pete has (finally) been replaced by Rubee , same model and make just different colour. I've managed to transfer a few ringtones from Amanda and wallpapers courtesy of threadless. I like me some personality.

NDP 09: What do u see?

2009-08-09T22:56:00.001+08:00

Mr Prez, you didn't even mouth the words to the National Anthem. Srsly ...

One and a half left feet

2009-08-04T23:20:00.000+08:00

CN made a mistake of trying to interest me in a new R&B song that must be all the rage now in Oz called Birthday Sex by sending me this video.

It is undoubtedly the most distasteful display of dance I’ve ever seen and I made little effort to conceal it. My reply to her went along the lines of, “WTF CN !!!!, that’s vulgar!”

And she called me narrow minded.

I returned the link with this.

Now that’s what you call a sexy dance. I'm contemplating picking up Bachata sometime too.

In conversation

2009-07-29T00:55:00.002+08:00

(Finally) Met up with Sha last week and was telling her about how in 5 years time, my mom would regret not letting me date when I was younger. With most of our secondary school friends hitched, i told her that we should have just gotten knocked up when we were 17. By now we'd have a husband, a kid and our own place. Assuming the whole purpose in life as a struggling middle lower class work horse = HDB dream* = accomplishment. It's better than chasing our own selfish personal ambitions and being lonely. Yes, if you couldn't catch it in the tone of my voice, I was being sarcastic. And then we laughed at the sheer irony, clinked our ice cream glasses (we were at Swensens) and toasted to that.

I thought I'd just include a little epilogue of the yardstick. He is there while I am here, separated by at least 16 hours of flight time. I think there is no question about whether he likes me I'm quite sure he does but it's more of whether he likes me enough.

When I'm with him things are so well executed that I really wonder if i'm just another one of the girls that he's made a move on for the umpteenth time. It is in good counsel that I was told to forget him, words like holiday girlfriend came up.

I don't think I ever have the willpower give him up when he's the one who looks me up in the first place. It could end well or come to nothing at all but I am not hoping for a happy ending although I have to admit, it'd be quite an awesome story to tell. At this point, I cannot even hope. His parting words to me were see you next year. That fucker.

* rite of passage. Finish school, get a partner, start a career, get a (government subsidised public housing) flat and get married.

2009-07-23T17:19:00.003+08:00

Writer's block. Here's an oldie but goodie I came across a while back to keep you company while i go regenerate.

'Aku Ingin' Sapardi Djoko Damono
Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana

dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkankayu
kepada api yang menjadikannya abu

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana
dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikanawan
kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada

2009-06-28T01:09:00.001+08:00

"She was someone I loved passionately.

When my youth ended, that existence disappeared from my sight.

Whenever I think of old times, it’s like a dream of beautiful scenes that I shouldn’t remember.

I never called her.

Perhaps I was afraid.

Afraid that I would see those scenes again.

The old memories were mine to keep. Buried within the depths of my heart"

2009-06-27T17:18:00.001+08:00

“ ‘You’ll get over it’… It’s all the cliches that cause the trouble. To lose someone you love is to alter your life forever. You don’t get over it because ‘it’ is the person you loved. The pain stops, there are new people, but the gap never closes. How could it? The articulation of someone who mattered enough to grieve over is not made anodyne by death. This hole in my heart is in the shape of you and no one else can fit it. Why would I want them to? Jeanette Winterson’s Body

via sabrina

And you'd wonder why I'm still not seeing anyone.

2009-06-24T00:46:00.007+08:00

I keep replaying this scene in my head:

The meeting with the yardstick.

We had agreed to meet at outside PS, I was walking from Orchard Mandarin. It was a Friday evening and I was strolling down, half excited, worried from not knowing what to say and frustrated at him for canceling on me a month ago. I made out a slim familiar figure in a distance and couldn't help but smile that big silly smile of mine. There he was and he continued to walk towards me. I had consciously put my nervous sweaty hands into my pockets and when we met, he gave me a huge hug. The enveloping, consuming kind and I could not help but put my arms around him. Gently, he tipped my chin upwards to kiss me for what seemed like 2 minutes at least, in front of the Istana, in full view of traffic and passers-by. His first words to me were "I've missed you."

Me: I waited. (in reference to him canceling on the date he made two months ago slated for the day before)

Him: Seems like you've waited all year for this.

Me: Me? Nah.

Him: Have you been seeing anyone?

Me: On and off but nothing serious.

Him: It must be my distant Melayu blood and Peranakan genes that makes me seem so attractive to you.

Me: Or not. I say it's natural selection.

And we launch into a conversation about Darwin and Wells. When we first dated some 7 years ago, he was such a self absorbed himbo, so he's gained a little weight in his cheeks and got a little soft at the sides but when we have conversations like these it makes him drop dead appealing.

I miss you too. If I didn't get to say it. I miss you when you're not here.

2009-06-16T16:58:00.002+08:00

One of the youth performer bands at the event on Saturday played the song Penny and me. I do agree that it's one of those lovely pop-ish songs with a cheery mood attached to it. I could so picture it in my head. The windows rolled down, driving down a freeway on a clear starry night in a red convertible. And Penny would be a huge golden retriever. My bitch.

My posts are getting shorter and I've yet to succumb to micro-blogging. Slowly now, so little time, so many things to do.

"In the year 3000 YouTube, Twitter, and Facebook will merge into one super-time-wasting website called 'You Twit Face'." - Conan O'Brien

Cab conversation

2009-06-12T11:11:00.002+08:00

This morning my cab driver has prophesied that at 25, soon to be degree holder and boyfriend-less that I will not get married because generally women who are higher educated tend to not settle for anything less. So does this means I should put off getting a masters after I get married? LOL.

The conversation reminded me of a clip a friend of mine sent to me a few weeks back.

Stuff that I actually say out loud amidst good company who don't think I'm wierd.

2009-06-11T18:44:00.001+08:00

You know guys are lucky that size doesn't always matter. The whole thing about penis sizes baffle me, you won't really know until the clothes come off then it's show hand. But honestly if we came to that, men should just walk around without pants on. Like Donald Duck.

Got ink?

2009-06-08T17:48:00.002+08:00

Kugan beat me to putting this up before I could even take a picture of myself. I'm plugging him for doing such an awesome job.

I like.

Sleeping with my eyes open.

2009-06-02T23:50:00.005+08:00

Despite being a communications student, sometimes I do think that very few people understand me and the way I think. Maybe that's because I hang on to the few that do. Mid month looms closer. As the wicker burns out fast, I wish I had someone to lean on for sanity. At this point is not about what I've done, but what I am about to do. For a short while I thought I found my roots, and then poof! like an apparition he disappeared into the night as stealthily as he came.

I wish you were real. For a moment my mind had conjured up a seemingly perfect situation, but the reality was what i had was a shattered antiquity, my hands bleeding from piecing it back together. What's worse than not knowing why it broke? Trying to figure out whether it was worth the effort trying to put it back together.

I want my life back as it was. I can do with decadence and a far cry from normal. We are all masochistic in our own little ways. Some more than others.

Enhanced version 2.0

2009-06-02T15:25:00.003+08:00

Rooney gets a pineapple hat and some lipstick, no. 16 whoever you are gets a tube bikini and afro. Why so serious?

2009-06-01T11:56:00.004+08:00

Dear V,

While you were away holidaying in UK with ur boyfriend, I had a little fun at your desk.

Soapy

My life according to my friends

2009-06-01T10:19:00.002+08:00

waiting

2009-05-31T12:20:00.000+08:00

*looks at phone*

Ringgggggggggggggggggg

2009-05-27T11:28:00.003+08:00

This is record breaking. I got the news 2 mins after CNA and ST Online reported it over MSN. My colleagues were stunned.

And MOH's site crashed ... lol

It's so hard to say goodbye

2009-05-25T18:31:00.006+08:00

For the past 1 year i had to say hello and goodbye to 6 great friends, some goodbyes harder than the others. For Cheanea, the long weekend was 48 hours and 4 hours of sleep. We talked for 6 hours straight throughout the nights just like old times.

Our faces and eyes all puffy.

As she walked through the departure gates my heart couldn't help but feel a tad empty. I'd miss having her around like crazy but no matter what she'll always be a part of who I am. And then distance becomes just a metric measurement.

The one for the road.

2009-05-23T18:09:00.001+08:00

I couldn't resist. Hyun Joong is just too cute. Oh and he does hip hop too.

In conversation

2009-05-16T13:00:00.004+08:00

Today I craved hugs. I instantly thought of the various hugs from people I could get. I liked the warm, enveloping kind that makes time stop for a little while.

My thoughts shifted to the yardstick and his no strings attached conditional preposition. Thing is I like him and when I'm around him I feel as if I forget to take my smart pills. The whole situation makes my moral high horse seem like a goddamn pigmy pony.

Was thinking of doing a fiction inspired by real people post about the lup sup bar but too much going on in real life than to be sitting staring at the computer. I like busy. Productivity makes me feel alive.

2009-05-13T11:39:00.004+08:00

Dancing in heels almost killed me. No surprise that I bombed at turns.

Dressed up for dummy date with Jo. Started off with Brewerks and had a bottle of wine at Robertson Quay. It was a good thing I was distracted. The place reeks of the Yardstick.

Jo's best angle

Gate crashed a bachelor's party. Turns out I knew the groom after all so it became a gate crash gone wrong. The aforementioned party was held in some lup sup KTV near Jalan Sultan it was strange being amongst the working girls. Anyways, no pictures of girls except me and funky glowing table.

Mind trip

2009-05-12T18:26:00.000+08:00

Incandescent is your presence by my bridge over troubled waters as you lift my chin gently and our lips would meet.

Filler

2009-05-10T23:55:00.008+08:00

Image credits

I realised my text is not so centralised. Oh well, screw it. Was telling an old friend how I want a whirlwind romance. I don't believe in growing to like someone. The latter sounds kinda like fungus. It's either you feel something or you don't.

My shopping list is ever so expanding. *cries*

Diana F+

Tattoo

Pair of Doc. Marts

A holiday or two

Shopping trip

sex slave

Today's do'h moment is brought to you by Ivy.

Ivy: Why do you need a sex slave for?

Me: For sex lah. Even primary school kid can tell you that.

I reckon that I know that age is catching up on me when I realise that the cute guys are getting younger and younger. Sigh

=.="

Wisdom in text

2009-05-08T11:41:00.000+08:00

den : i'm suggesting that the yardstick is a mirror image tat is created frm this guy.. so while there is oni 1 of this guy.. the yardstick sort of guy could appear somewhere else too

Sweaty paws and happy feet

2009-05-06T06:18:00.005+08:00

My hip was slightly sore from today's overzealous session. Shiny full-length floor to ceiling mirrors are my latest adversaries. I can see every ounce of undesirable fat on my body. I discovered that I'm not programmed to dance side ways, i lose my counts and bearings. I'm not quite looking forward to the turns. I realise that I follow better with my eyes closed. I'm too stubborn for my own good.

There was a particular guy that was on the petite side, vertically challenged. I couldn't figure out where to rest my line of vision and ended up looking downwards. I saw his round tummy before his feet. I couldn't help but chuckle to myself. And I'm not sure which is funnier this or another guy who doesn't seem to have any sense of rhythm at all. The sight of him reminded me of S in a club dancing to R&B, it's the absolutely the unsexiest thing ever known to my eyes.

I'm trying to convince Jan (the favourite gay cousin) to join me. Nothing more attention grabbing than 2 gender benders rockin' out latin moves in a gay club. It's so him. I'm excited so excited that I'm picking up costumes in my head.

I wake up alone.

2009-04-30T18:09:00.003+08:00

What do you do when the person you like tells you he likes someone else?

You mope around a little, engage in some retail therapy, listen to some emo music and life returns to it's normalcy.

Just a few days ago, a colleague asked me what type of guy i liked. The question caught me off guard as I was completely stumped.

Without thinking, I said, my yardstick.

She frowned and said, how am I going to find a guy like that? What is it about the yardstick that you like?

I like nice boys, I replied.

And what defines a nice boy?

The type that will hold the door open for you.

Oh you mean the gentleman?

I suppose (half sure)

Oh that type are extinct. Good luck!

I went home and thought about it. It wasn't the fact that I thought he was hot since the very first day that attracted me. It was the attraction itself. When I'm with him I feel like I get the air knocked out of my lungs, I like how we're on the same page about alot of things, I liked how we could have good conversation, I liked how he laughed and smiled was infectious, I liked how he lived his life carpe diem.

And then it dawned on me; the fallacy of my hypothesis of having a yardstick. He had a name and face.

When nothing inspires

2009-04-24T10:54:00.005+08:00

I pimp out my pussays .... *yawns*

Office Laughs

2009-04-20T17:55:00.000+08:00

VW: What brand of cigarettes do you smoke?
Me: Brand XX but only on the occasion.
VW: *Makes a face* I like the smell of Malboro Reds before you smoke them. They kinda smell like raisins.

Hearts are meant to be broken

2009-04-19T21:34:00.009+08:00

Sometimes it's almost obscene that we look so hard to find what we're looking for that it manifests itself into something purely imaginary.

Emo shite. I've always been good at it. Kapoot.

I movie marathon-ed today. I caught Three Kingdoms: Resurrectio n of the Dragon, I didn't get the flow of it. For a while I was wondering what was so special about it, eye candy factor was barely there. Weapons-play was alright but it was not as if there were many detailed fight scenes. The story line was rather disappointing, I reckon I could summarize the whole show in 160 char sms. I totally didn't get the bro-mance between Sammo Hung and Andy Lau's character and Maggie Q casting was absolutely weird. She's pretty but too Euro-Asian for a period drama.

I've also taken a liking for modern Korean shows. I can see the appeal. It's a little late to be jumping on the bandwagon. If you appreciate lewd toilet humour, K-comedy might just be the thing for you.

Crazy first love was exactly that. The movie opens with an open declaration of love by a boy who strips in front of a crowd to prove his manhood. The humour can be quite slapstick and the lead had a stupid looking 'fro. At the end of the day, its quite an endearing love story.

I loved the storytelling and detail in He was Cool. Out of the few shows I caught today I thought that there was a little more of a thought process when it came to piecing the movie together. The lead character was so layered with so many sub-plots happening, I thought that it could even fit into a series or mini series.

Following Lee Ki-woo's filmography, I came across Sad Movie which was anything but happy. It's a combo tragedy that makes you cannot help but feel good after because the characters all befall some form of terrible misfortune - A young son loses his mother to cancer, loss of a fiance to his job, unrequited love and finally learning to let go of a loved one who's moved on.

Oooh general observation on K-media, their movie stars are better looking as compared to the drama actors where as for the Japanese their celebs do everything from singing to movies, dramas, TVC and endorsements. I guess Sg would be similar in that aspect, the essential difference is that our "celebs" are on the talentless side who's super-stardom is much perceived and limited to housewives.

I remember

2009-04-14T22:56:00.004+08:00

You wore a red shirt and Levis on my first day of school. I noticed you in the LT amongst the other rowdy boys checking out the freshmen girls. I thought you were a stud. (for the lack of a better word)

I'm not sure what it was that attracted me in the first place but for a moment you had looked straight at me as I was watching you. Our eyes met briefly and I was deeply embarrassed that you caught me looking.

When I first told you this, I remember you laughing at my expense.

You said that to your credit, you remember me for the very same day because I was cute and I had a flat ass that made my jeans fit funny. I was mortified. Then again my butt had never been a real ass-et. I blame my dad's Chinese genes.

After what seems like 8 years after, you still insist that I had singled you out, kiss me and tell me how you can't deny good taste. I remember ... and I'm retardedly happy.

Coffee Prince

2009-04-14T00:46:00.002+08:00

Oh regarding my disappearance, I completed an entire K-drama (Coffee Prince) over the Easter weekend. The line up of music was quite good - a handful in English, my only gripe was that they started to repeat some songs later in the show which i suspect is a cost saving measure on licensing. One of my favourites being the one below which has a nice sad tune to it.

I also thought that the way they begun the drama was very Japanese with the CG and whimsical flashbacks incorporated without leaving out the typical Korean elements of a young adult drama (not in order of appearance)

1. Poor girl (check)

2. Rich guy (check)

3. Family opposes relationship (check)

4. Male lead stripping (check)

5. Male/female lead crying so hard until snot runs (check, check check)

6. Plastic looking antagonist (half-check)

Since there was no particular antagonist, but the 2nd lead seemed antagonizingly plastic/ cliche enough.

The homosexual undertones were an interesting twist. At one point of the story, one of the characters Sun Ki who plays a Japanese remarks that, (homosexuality) in Japan was a normal thing and was more acceptable.

There's been a surge of Koreans remaking Japanese material for their own. Two examples would be Hana Yori Dango (Boys over flowers) and Antique Bakery. I've yet to catch the Korean version for both.

*I'm still dancing**

In conversation - the return of the yardstick (It had to be you)

2009-04-13T18:44:00.004+08:00

Original text msg:

I'm back on the (Date)! Be at XXX mrt at 11pm. I'm staying the night.

I was hoping it was him. I was so sure. I just needed his affirmation. It's been a year. Wouldn't kill him to just come clean right? Then I remembered how the romantics and mystery had always been part of his appeal. I miss ...

Sophie
facebook msg i asked u if u were the one who sent the potentially suggestive text to me
6:26pmYardstick
might have been
6:27pmSophie
you half irk me (for not signing off)
i was wondering why my dad would want to meet up at 11pm (at the mrt)
6:27pmYardstick
how so?
lol
u jus have to wait at 11 to see who turns up then
6:28pmSophie
if i asked him and got it wrong, i'd probably have to sit thru a half hour lecture abt the birds and the bees
grin I'll see you then

Talkback: Hello my name is ...

2009-04-07T17:56:00.010+08:00

This post is inspired by Den, about the difficulty of getting goodfriends the older we get.

As far as self introductions go which I have been doing quite alot lately trying to break out of an old mold, meeting new people is more like an opportunity that I allow myself.

Speaking of which, just yesterday, in jest, I was poking fun of my colleague,

LS: Actually I'm very shy one.
Me: *sniggering* LS, there is a difference between shy and anti-social.

To which our E, a fellow resident of our cubi-hood (cubicle neighbourhood) known as the vortex of the insanity burst out laughing and slapped me a nice high five.

So back to this issue of making friends, between shy and anti-social, I wouldn't be surprised if i gravitated to the latter. While it may be easy for me to go up to introduce myself, it's another thing altogether that one sees me at ease. One of the motivating factors could be dependent on the company I host or hosting me.

I draw an example from personal experience, the secondary school that I went to was one of those mandarin speaking ones. Since my preferred and almost (only) language I can effectively converse in is English, I found it hard to build friendships but those that stick though, were well worth it, as I would discover as long as 12 years later. (ZOMFG, it's been 12 years since I first knew my secondary school friends lah -.- )

*ditsy moment* But I digress ...

When I had moved on to poly I realised it was easier to communicate with my peers, there were other people who were crap at their second languages, perhaps not so coincidental that they usually come from the MGSs, IJs and the St. somethings and I didn't feel so alone or intellectually challenged anymore.

Then came Uni where in a communications course the inability to articulate would cause much embarrassment. It gets easier for me to let my guard down to exchange initial pleasantaries but again out of so many superficial relationships built, some through the capacity of work or social activities I guess what matters more is the act of building and sustaining long term relationships.

Just for fun I did a short search on the web and I found some interesting articles, one of interest being, What's the ideal number of friends? that builds upon Dunbar's number that most people have 5 very close friends, 10 in the second tier of closer friends some of which might be made up of family, 35 in the next tier and about 100 in the last category where one would consider to be less than acquaintance.

Makes me kinda ponder about where I stand in my friends' lives. :)